The relationship between me and I

At one side, a woman who wants to grow, someone who urges to find happiness and live this feeling.  A woman for whom all obstacles were always easy to overcome and was always very hard working, leaving her own personal aside when it called out for her to go and fight for her plans and desires. 

On the other side, a woman who cant simply get out from bed, who is weak and suffering and is morally broken. 

This second woman is the person id like to share some lines about in here.

My days are being so boring, so boring, so depressing and so stupid that i really cant say a word about them w/o swearing.

I am not used to stay doing nothing and rely on hopes and promisses and most of all asking others for favours.

I feel extremelly abandoned.

 

Searching for a Job

Yeah, I'm searching for new job, as I got into a difficult deadline in my job at Skill, with my boss reacting very stupidly to me and teachers, his mind disturbed daughter making her moves against my ideas, and all the problems that I had been facing in the last months.  So, we had a long talk (about 2 hours), and he exposed his thoughts - as well a I did, and according to his proposal - which was outrageous, I had nothing let to choose than being dismissed. 

It was very surprising , as I didnt expect this thing to happen that way, I mean, I had plans to leave school, but not that way.

I had exactly 6 hours to pack my things, leave everything in order, and leave.  Raul and the driver (!!) from the school helped me packing and the driver gave me a lift home with my things in a box (a big one) and a black sack, those ones we use for litter. (!!)

I packed everything i had produced, not leaving even a microscopic evidence of my plans, works, projects behind.  Anyway, since then, I have been sending a thousand CV's everywhere, talked to many people, cried, laughed, and most of all, have been reflecting on my career, on my wishes, on my behaviour and especially on my future.

Some funny facts happened lately, before and after Chris visit to me, I have been to Saint Giles School, a very nice school, (but too far), spoke to the director and she wanted me to teach there in the very early mornings, at 7am. Good grief, cant make it in time to that, no way.  Its a 90 minute journey till that school and I wouldnt be able to wake up at 5am and head to the school at 5.30am.  No way.

I declined the proposal then.

Another school I have been invited to work for is a Canadian School. Not a franchise system, thank god, but still, very small (about 50 students) and again, they wanted me to work there everyday at 7am, didnt pay for my transport and it means that i would be spending 1/3 from my wages with transport, which makes no sense, and would be earning far less if compared to the schools around Moema.

Then, after Chris left, I been to Planet School, and Im still going there. Reason: its just 3 blocks from home (saves in transport) and they are renewing their team of teachers, which means that I will get more classes.

The pay is shit, u actually gain in quantity, like, having to work 3 periods in order to have 2/3 of what I was used to earn during 3 years of my life. What a shit.

But anyway, i still have chances to complete my day/night working for other schools and lets see if I can make my salary increase. Cos i really need that.

But something very curious is the "quality" of those ppl in charge for recruiting the teachers....  Disappointing...  I will jot down some of the wise quotes i have been listening during my interviews and talks with them:

"What's the Theoretical Philosophy applied in the schools headline for the courses?"

"Oh, Communicative.  We dont believe in methodology, but in good teaching"
- Caroline - Saint Giles School

"Conversation."
- Chou, Planet School

"The book 'new Interchange'"
- Sergio, Canadian Language School.

  Ferdinand de Sausurre, "father" of linguistics

 Heaven helps me!!  Sausurre!!! Help me!!! I want to work with good intelectual people!!! Not a bunch of rats!!!

 Vygotsky, "father" of socio-interacionism

Vygotsky!! Look at me!! Pray for me!!! Im your daughter, need a shelter!! feed me with your intelligence!!  feed those dummies!!!

 This is ME,being tortured, listening to all that amount of shit crap

 Its unbelievable how these ppl "have the power" in schools! This is the reason why I kept receiving new teachers from other schools so weak in methodology, so wek in terms of knowlegment, so crap!! They had those people as bosses!! As commander, as captain of their ship!!  A person who simply replies: "Conversation", thinking that he was speaking to a dumb, who would accept "conversation" as the "theoretical headline" for the conception of the courses...  Goooshhh!!!  "Conversation" ???

The "chiefs"
  The class I had to attend as "part of training" (they believe that a training is a simply attendance of a class) was something I almost fainted.

The teacher, a blonde young male teacher, looking like a surfer, wearing a "sweeden" t-shirt, with such a high pitch voice, kept repeating the conjugation of verbs with no context at all while the two victims (oops, students) were repeating them.  Sometimes he would make direct translation to some vocabulary and most of the times, students were simply repeating words. 

After repeating, he would say: "So, any doubts?"

Any doubts??

Doubts about what???  I reply.  (in my mind, of course, my horse)

 

My dearest one

My bunny :)

My bunny and I messing around

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