Phew

In a few hours the year will be gone,lol

Today I woke up at 6am and gosh....  I watched a bit of TV - some educational programs that are in the air at such a time, and then, I went to the bakery, to buy some bread.

I dont like it when I wake up so early...this means that I didnt sleep well, that something was inside my mind and couldnt let me relax in peace.

Last night I went to sleep befor midnight.  So I think that I havent slept 8 hours.  damm

After I had breakfast, I came to the PC to search for beach destinations.  All I can say that the prices are very high and gosh, I dont feel like spending a fortune in a 4 day-trip. 

For you to have an idea, a complete tour = flight+hotel to porto Seguro (northeast , the beach that has the sand hills and stuff) costs around R$800 (£ 145), and note that this trip is a long journey.  Porto Seguro is very far from São Paulo, about 4 hours by plane.  

And, on the other hand I found a very interesting destination, called Ilha do Mel - Mel Island.

 

To get there, I can take a bus down to Curitiba (in the State of Paraná) - 6 hours trip, and from Curitiba, I catch another bus and travel for 1 hour and a half, until the little city which has the boats that cruises from the continet to the island.

The thing is, have to know the schedule of those boats very well, otherwise you can end up being in the little city,lol  This Island is a world protected eco stuff, and the government doesnt allow more than 5 thousand ppl to get in the island per day. Also, no cars are allowed in there. Everything is done by foot,lol

In there, the streets doesnt have a pavement.  It is pure sand. And the little "roads" in there dont have lights.  So, they recommend tourists to bring lanterns. LOL

Can u imagine me in there??? LOL 

But, well, This is one of the views you can have of the beach, hehe
Ah.... I see those pics and imagine myself there.... sitting by those quiosques, having beer, and eating sea food, and the sun....the sea.... 

This is another beach in there.

This is the "modern" boat people must go in order to cruise from the continent to the island, Hahaha  Gosh, it is a bit scary, isnt it? I wonder why those ppl are over the boat's roof, lol

But, seriously.... this must be a real adventure, dont u think?
It must be very cool, and I am sure that the person who gets into this trip forgets ALL about the city life, lol 

I dunno...  I invited Naia, this morning, to join me, and she told me that she is already on a beach, with her, er... bf, or friend, or whatever he is, then, I invited Kika (lol) and she said that she works on Monday, so, she cant go on trips...  Then, I invited my cousin, Karen and she said she also had to work on the coming week, damm

So, sincerely, I think that If I go there, and take this adventure "indiana jones" trip, I will do it myself.  Gosh. Im a bit scaried to go there on my own , hummm  But, on the other hand, it may be fun to face all this alone and kill the insects, and cruise in that boat, and meet ppl and stuff,lol

The cost of this trip is rather cheap.  The bus tickets are about R70 - round trip.  Then, from Curitiba, take another bus to the little city, it may cost around R15, then the boat cruise - 30 minutes, costs R10 + plus R4 fee for eco stuff. 

The hostels charge about R30 per night,lol  Thats ridiculous price.  If I stay there for 5 days, it makes R175.  (£ 31 ) Can u believe it? With breakfast included!

Then, there, as there are no shopping centres, all I have to carry with me is pocket money for the beers, lol 

If I prefer to have more comfort, I can fly to Curitiba - 40 minute flight, but it costs more, about R500 ( £91) - round trip.  I think it is very expensive for a 40 minute flight. But it saves me a lot of time...  Well, I dunno yet...  Im still thinking. 

Of course that I am willing to go, but I have to think it better cos the "fright" I feel for doing all this alone is big.  Gosh, very much.

I wish Chris could be here so that I could convince him to join me in this adventure,lol

I think he would like to go, although it is pretty different from the trips he uses to make,lol  No castles, no landrover, no hotel by cornfields, no loch ness around,lol 

Yes, I am sure he would go, just to see me shouting at the insects, lol

Anyway... I must think it better...
Maybe I go... and the dead end time to decide is on sunday...  otherwise I wont have enough time to enjoy the beach.

Lets see what my crazy mind comes up. lol

  

 

 

 

 

 December 30th.  2004

Gosh, this year flew away so quickly..
I wonder if it happens only because im in my thirties...

I had promised myself not to end this year before sorting out all the things I had left behind the whole year around.  And...  Guys...  believe it or not, I could make it!!

Today, it was the last thing to make before I could sit and breath and say, with my soul full of pride, "Yes, I made it!!"

Finally, after so many months, I could put an end to a story that was driving me crazy and making me lose my sleep.  When I stepped out from the bank, I turned around and looked at the bank and told myself: "Damm shit bank!!! I promise never more to put my feet here again!!"  And one more page from our book of life has turned over...

The only thing I am really sorry and somehow, trying to overcome, is the fact that I should have been spending these days in the company of Chris...  Yes, I was supposed to leave by dec 27th ...  But, well, we cant control things 100% in life, and well, im trying not to cry more over the spilled milk,...  The thing is: I will make the trip but not now.  So, why worry?  I wont cry over this anymore.  In fact I was thinking to myself, before returning home from the 4 banks I went to today, I should take some money from the savings and make a trip to the beach before I start working again...  I miss the beach very much.  And I think it will do well in my mind to pack and go on a trip for 5 days, before I start over the work, and worries.

Anyway, let me tell u how things are now, about my bank process:  I talked to my real manager at HSBC.  She said that I need to ask my boss to write a statement-letter telling about  my earnings, and my position. Well, this is easy, cos I would ask him anyway to write this letter, as i need that to take to UK with me.  But the thing is... He will be in town back only after january 5th, lol

Then, She said that I can send her this letter via fax simile, and then, after credit approval - for international credit card-  she says it takes 1 week until my cheques are done and card and etc. Phew.  So, the worst and more difficult part of my stuff is already sorted out.  Now it is a question of waiting...  I cant do anything else, except wait.  So, the calendar is:

Dec 30th (today) - I delivered the documents, stating that i am ok with justice, and financial stuff.

Jan 5th - I start working (not officially)  and ask my boss for the letter.
             I send the fax to my manager.

Jan 7th - My situation is cleared up in both central Bank and stuff. (the documents   I have handed in today takes about a week to be processed)

Jan 10th - I start working officially
               I phone my manager and she gives me the green signal for my credit.

Jan 17th - I am supposed to have all the cheques and credit card on my hands.

So, I cant do anything else until the 5 working days (jan 7th) comes, and I have the statement from my boss (Jan 5th).  Therefore, I decided not to cry over the spilled milk anymore.  I will try to lead my life normally until I have all the things in my hands and be free again to act as a real citizen. Also, I will never more say blasphemies over what has happened (the lost cheque and stuff), cos I wont grow more wrinkles in my face because of that.  What is done is done, and furthermore: Chris must be patient and wait until I can make things right and go to him in peace.

No fun in travelling knowing that a big shit is waiting for me when i arrive.  Dont u think?  Imagine me travelling, and thinking: "Im not doing things right, I should have cleared things up before.." - and more! imagine me spending my days in there and speaking about this shit??  No way. 

The thing is: when i have a problem, I cant help talking about it until I solve it.
This is me.

It takes time and suffering, but I end up sorting things out! Phew.

Anyway:  As I am already a grown up woman, almost a mother, (lol) , I must learn how to control my impulses and my wishes:  If I cant make the trip now, I wait until I can make it nicely.  And I tell you:  It wont take long, cos The next holiday I have is on February, the second week, during Carnival. So, if u take it into account, its just 6 weeks until I meet him.

And also I will have more time to prepare luggage and stuff.  Cos in January, the school is not under so much pressure. - I hope.  So, I will go work in the morning - at 10am, the first 2 weeks, and leave by 6pm. The following weeks, i will start working at 12pm and leave by 8pm - as I have to do the teacher training. So, I will have plenty of time to work out the suitcase, the clothes, and also, i will have my financial situation in order.

The thing is: As soon as I get the cheques and credit, I will rush to the agency and buy at once the trip. So, I wont have to worry about it afterwords.

Well.  I cant say that I am happy 100%, I have cried a lot these past months (nov-dec) due to this frustration and all the mess related to the bank which caught me by surprise and I really couldnt do anything faster than I actually did.

But I am happy , say, 75%.  
Cos I could make it. And I feel a strong relief inside my soul. I feel lighter.
I feel that now I can rest my head on the pillow and really sleep.

So...  I was thinking.... "Cris, why dont u take a little money and go to the beach? just to give urself this prize, as u could behave well all year long, and have got tired from all the emotions u had gone through, and as a way to tell urself: u deserve it, girl!"

Yes...  Why not?

Humm....  I will see how much is a 6 day trip to a beach...  Lets see....

 

 

 Xmas in The countryside

I went there on dec 23rd and left by dez 29th.  My "guinness record", lol 6 days in the countryside.
I was missing my bed, my tv, my fridge and my apartment.
Strange to spend time in mums house.
It is OK, although we dont feel we are in our place, as she has her routines, and her habits.  I have to adapt.  And lets say, mum is not a sort of host who lets the "son's and daughters's " feel at home.  Whatever u do she gives a "complaint", like. U hang the towel in the laundry wire, she says: "Why have u hung the towel in THIS wire??" The correct wire is there!!"  Gosh.  Also: "What time are u going to shower?" - me: "Whenever I feel like showering".  So, it is a bit annoying. 

Weird. When we live for so long on our own, it is difficult to share a place with someone else. Especially when it is our mum.  For boys it is easier.  I think mums like her sons more than they like their daughters. I dont know why. This is something i really feel.

On Xmas, she was looking really sad.  I asked why; she said: ur brother hasnt phoned me until now. (it was 6pm) I Said: mum!!! It is only 6pm here !!! We got 6 hours difference between Brazil and California!!!

Then, I asked her to put a smile in her face cos her daughter was there to enjoy Xmas together.  Then, I think She got embarassed and started to "fake" smiles."
I thank my brother to have called her.  Gosh I was starting to feel pissed off.

Anyway. I dunno.  I think the best place in the world is our own place.  Where we can behave the way we want. TO wake up when we want, to go sleep when we want, to eat or not to eat .

Gosh. Mum is ok, but I think she did a big mistake in moving to the countryside.  But i dont even touch this subject with her, cos she gets angry to me.

Anyway, my 6 days in the countryside, here, in pics.  Hope u enjoy it.  :)

Using the timer and having my granny laughing at me cos I was looking ridiculous when running and striking a pose to the camera,lol
The only thing that is missing is a smile, dont u think?
8pm - very hot and the sunset. 

Oooooops
This was close, eh?

 

This is me, suntanning at 8pm - LOL
The pic was a bit dark, so I had to lighten it through the pic software.  I stayed the whole day in bikinis and CANGA -  the name of this dress we wear in pools and beach.  I wear hat cos i dont like sun in my face and hair. - And I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE HATS>  hehe (wink)

That far behind is me.  In my black dress.  ( and Hat, obvious). That arm is dads.  I think he was pointing to me and saying something.  Observe: Hes got his beer glass in his hands, lol 
This time was when i was about to go to the mini market nearby to buy some stuff mum asked me to buy.  Mum ALWAYS ask me to go to that mini market when I am laying by the sun and enjoying myself. Then I had to dress up and go.  Gosh - Grrrr

 

Me + Family.  Luiz - The "step cousin" + Uncle. Then U have my granny who was talking to my aunt. 
I was about to go to the mini market.  Janis was willing to climb on my lap. lol

This is - obvious - me.   I was showing my granny how the camera timer used to work out.  Granny was sitting just behind the camera. and I put the camera on the white table. I didnt have time to "strike a pose",lol

I really dunno why the pics we take inside the water looks we are 40 kilos fatter,lol  This is me and Jimmi looking at me and willing to throw himself into the water.  This was about 6pm, and the temperature was fine and the water was a bit cold.
Look at my hair,lol  Gosh, how terrible!! 

This pic I took to show brother as he doesnt know how the house looks like. This is the area just before the living room door.  It is a kind of corridor.  That little thing with a little roof, is a well.

This is the back of the house, in a corridor.  U can see the way to the "outside" dinning room, whatever it is called.  This is the place I hide myself to smoke a cigs, so that dad doesnt see me smoking,lol 

This is a shot of the "scenery".  Funny. I think the house is OK.  But the city is crap.  And also, mum doesnt like leaving the house to go for walks, so i have no one to follow me to the exploration walks. I wish this house was by the beach, not a stupid countryside.

This is a shot taken from the "outside dinning room".  Gosh it was hot.

Countriside sky at 8:30.  Almost soap time,lol

My uncle - Miro.  He is a studio technician.   He works in studios to manage teams of sound operators.
Also, Internet TV  - (www.alltv.com.br), and also other cool studios.  He is the one who picked me up to drive me to the countriside.  Ah! He quit smoking.  He quit this year, in March.

 

Granny in her 40's swimming suit and mum with Jimmi.  When he trew himself into the pool.

This is dad and janis. 

This is the door that leads to the kitchen. 

 

Granny and dad hand. by the table..  This table is the one outside the house, near the pool. There , near the barbecue grill, there is a mini fridge and a table and a sink. This is a place for outdoors meals, when it is hot.

 

This is mum's kitchen and Janete, the maid.  Janete comes everyday, and does all the stuff in the house. - except cooking - as mum doesnt like ANYONE touching her pans and stuff. ,lol
Janete is a good girl. She is about 26 years old and already has 2 children!!

Janete again.  She was washing the dishes.  The thing I like the most when I go to mum's is that i even dont make my bed,lol 

Dad drinking Beer ,lol 
He stays there around the pool, walking and drinking and sometimes, he talks to himself,lol
Funny that he shouts at me when I stay under the sun by midday, saying that the sun provokes cancer....  but this pic was taken by 12:45pm.   "Do as I say".... Not as I do...   This is dad's motto, lol 

Jimmi LOVES the water. And he throws himself into the pool whenever he sees there is someone in there. 
Then, we have to catch him and hold his belly, while he moves his paws.   He knows how to get out from the pool by himself by climbing the stairs.  This is mum. helping him.

This is Jimmi after swimming,lol  Now, he goes to his towel - the red one, and dries himsef by rolling over it.

Maria - The aunt (left) and Granny.  The hand belongs to my Uncle.
Jimmi looking Janes' Butt,lol

There u go: the uncle and Luiz, the boy the granny's sister adopted when he was a baby.
He belonged to an indian tribe,lol  Luiz is my age although due to starvation - when he was a baby, he hasnt got his metal faculty 100%. Although hes my age he sounds he is 15 years old.  But he is a very good guy.  Loving, caring and a good chap.  He is also an artist.  He makes handcraft sculptures with iron. His sculptures were already shown in an special exbihition in Campinas.  A crowded city, 50 min from São Paulo.

Dad reading the morning paper with Janis in his lap.  He says that because of her, he cant move the paper abruptely, and must take care of his legs position,lol

An Amuzement Park we pass by in the highway, on our way to São Paulo. Its name is Hopi Hari (www.hopihari.com.br)  And it is very cool. I have already gone for a ride in that roller coaster,lol

And this is the Wet & Wild.  An American Water Park that landed in the state some years ago. Beside Hopi Hari. I have never been there, tho. I think this is for children most.

Leaving the PEDÁGIO
After paying and stuff

The fee we must pay for using the highways.

 

The car queues for the PEDÁGIO

 

Waiting to pay the ticket-fee

No Cars in the highway.  Luckily we spent only 1:30.  Usually we spend 2hours

December - 2004

Time to review things I have done so far - or havent done.

Lets go in points:

THINGS I HAVENT DONE THIS YEAR

1. I Havent restarted my gym, which i so much love to go and work out, letting my energy aim to the body sweating, doing the leg press, the walking machine, the weights to lift and make my arms a bit stronger and have a stunning butt,lol Shame on me! The gym is just across my building. But we all say: "i dont have the time". bullshit.
   
2. Quit smoking. no comments needed in this issue.
   
3. Having the peeling on my skin. This is something that really bothers me as I have been planning this laser peeling for a year already. I want to get rid of some white spots i have due to the sun exposition and also, make my skin a bit more young-like. I need to do this peeling during the month of July - as the skin musnt be exposed to the sun light during one month after the process. But, anyway, I will try to have a chemical soft peeling this week, with the ointment the doctor have suggested me to try. But, again, need to use a sun blocker factor 45 to leave home. Otherwise i will get stains on my skin. Lets see.
   
4. Havent had my walls painted, nor the electrical wires changed at home. Well, u know that i simply HATE the electrical stuff in my place. Also, i need urgently to re paint the walls. These 2 things are a "must-do" next year.
   
5. Havent organized my CD collection. I have been planning to take a weekend off to sit on the floor of my living room, and spread all my CDs over and try to organize them and make a catalog. Like a data base of Cd's. And also buy a piece of forniture wooden made, in the shape of a cabinet to store my CD's, organized and easy to sort out. The most annoying thing is when I want to listen to a particular CD and take AGES to find it. Or, worst, when u find the case of the CD u want to listen and then, u open it...and....where is the CD ? Grrrr
   
6. Havent made food for the week during the weekend. Every week is the same thing: I regret spending fortunes in restaurants to have lunch and therefore, dont have a healthy eating habit. So, I promise to spend the weekend preparing food for the coming week. But... well, u know what happens...
   
7. Drink 2 liters of water everyday and quit drinking coca cola. Humm. I drink glasses and glasses of water at work. But as friday comes, I use to drink liters of coca. Shame on me. I think I should drink more juices aswell. Watermellon juices...mmmm
   
8. Having a laser shaving. This is unacceptable. I even dont know why i ended up the year w/o having it!! I bet that if there wasnt this technology, I would swear at the flintstones age, and hairy legs and arm pits. So, I really dunno why i havent done it yet. And keep suffering from the cavewomen age "waxing". Ouch!!! So simple this laser shaving. U lay down and the woman , with a sort of tool in the shape of a BIC pen, point the laser beam to the disgusting hair and in 3 sessions, ur done!! And NEVER more in ur life u have to worry about unwanted hair, spoiling ur skin with shavers and stuff. I am against men who make laser shaving on their faces. I believe that men MUST have those stingy spots of hair on their face and then, when he comes to kiss you, u feel it is a MAN who is there, not a man with a smoother skin than urs,lol Please, Chris: keep ur body hair!!! lol
   
9. I havent made a baby. Well. U know that this is something I really want. to have a baby. A little person who ressembles me and need help to make his first steps and call me "mum". Hehe. how cute!! To feel him hugging me and feed him from my breasts. And take him to school, teach him things, and say: "Dont walk around in socks!!!" lol Lets see what happens to my "motherhood dream" next year. Humm... I was wondering.... Chris sounds to be a good father... Wonder if he would agree to give me a baby? lol But well, lets see if we can make one baby together... Humm... maybe in the end of next year? Humm.. well, then my baby would be born during my summer and his winter. Humm.. But there is a thing: I wont want to spend the pregnancy period alone. Who would go and buy the "watermellon ice cream with chantilly" i will desire in the middle of the night? lol Also, who would rest his hand over my big belly to feel the baby moving? Difficult...

THINGS I HAVE DONE THIS YEAR

1. I have started my piano classes :) But had to stop due to the high cost and the mess that my life went on by the middle of the year.
   
2. I have upgraded my career.
   
3. I have organized my bits of paper and folders. - although i havent organized the drawers in the kitchen.
   
4. I have finally found a person to whom i can dedicate my love. His name is Christopher. And he is the most amazing present I have received from life. I try and keep the flame burning and I make him sure about my love for him. So good to be able to say "I love you" and REALLY mean it. He has been being the man of my life so far. And I hope this feeling lasts forever. He is smart, funny, misterious, sensual, intelligent, organized, well educated, polite, delicate, soft, understanding, kind, lovely. I just remember one day i have seen him in a bad mood: it was when England played Portugal and they lost ,lol That was during Eurocup. I laughed a lot - not because of their loss, but because I havent seen him swearing so much before,lol I like it when he is expontaneous and speaks his mind. I feel he is being authentic and behaving like a real man when pissed off. lol
   
5. I have developed a better relationship with my father. I think that because of the absence of my brother, my dad started to draw his attention to me more, and somehow, he could begin to understand that he can count on me as much as he counts on my brothers friendship. He has shown himself a superdad, making me feel protected (as I have always wanted), cared, and loved. Before my brother has left to US, my dad seemed to only worry about my brother, like, he only used to come to me whenever he wanted to argue about something I had - or hadnt done - and he thought that I Must have done this thing, and also to tell me things about my brother. Now, he phones me up to see if I am home, he cares if I am eating well, can u believe it that one of these days, he appeared in front of my school, called out for me, and gave me a box full of sweets and snacks, and said: "I passed by this shop and bought some treats for u as I know u work til late". That was so kind of him. :) I really like this sort of "little displays" of love. I really LOVE my father. He is my superman!! lol
   
6. I have learned to believe in myself and be more self confident about my abilities. I was given a really huge bomb and i was afraid. To start to work in a school which was the "model school" of the franchise network I work for. And I could turn from this "nightmare" into a loving dream.
   
7. I have said "I love you" to my brother. Funny. But I dont remember saying such a ´phrase to him before. My brother was always my little baby - although he is much taller than me,lol And since he was born I used to take care of him and call him as my "teddy bear". He was so cute when he was a baby. U know those babies from Johnson's adverts for diapers? He looked just like those cute babies. :) When I said on the phone "I love you, Sergio". He was in US. He went silent. I went silent. Then... he giggled and said: "I love you too, sister." - I have always had problems in saying "I love you" to ppl. But this year I think I could overcome this pain in teeling ppl that I do love them.
   
8. I have carried out my savings and investments. This is something I really need to celebrate, as money was always a problem for me. I have difficulties to deal with it and plan my expenses. My father has always said that I needed to marry a man who could earn much more than me, cos if he didnt, then, the family would be screwed as i would never have enough money to bare my bills,lol I just need someone who can keep control of my money and tell me what i have to do. I dont like dealing with money. I find it boring.
   
9. I have started a successful diet !!! Yes!! I am almost getting in shape and fitting in my 38 jeans. This is so cool. But, of course, I am counting on medicines to refrain me from eating the whole bakery as a way to distress the lack of Sex,lol The medicine is really cool. Stops the hunger completely. I just eat now cos i need to eat. Not because I am a rolly polly,lol
   
10. And I have kept this diary. J
    
    
    

Well. I cant think of more things right now. But well, something I am doing these days is to catch up with my friends. They have all complained about my silence during the year and so, now, I am in a craze to be around them. So, on my birthday i was around some of them, and laughed a lot with them. On Saturday I went to a farewell party. Again, my friends around me. And on Sunday, I had lunch out with another friend – something I havent done so much so far. And yesterday, Kika appeared in my place and we decided to go to the bakery and talk nonsense, to relax. From the bakery, we went to a nearby bar, had some drinks and talked more. This contact is so good. I was needing it very much. Make me feel alive. It is good also to share ur ideas, live, and listen to others.

Maybe today i do something with my friends? Who knows?

My birthday started very weirdly.
On 16th, at around 12am, my phone rang.
I was terribly tired. I was in bed already. 
It was mum.
We started to talk, she said congratulations and stuff.  Then we talked about xmas, and also about my trip.
Then, because of my trip, we started to argue, i could not believe the things she was telling me.
She said that i wasnt making a move to my trip, that deep in my soul i didnt want to go to Uk, and if i really wanted it, i would have done things earlier.
That really pissed me off and i told her that she doesnt have the right to interfere and to say things about my life as she doesnt make part of my life anymore...  As she lives far and we kind of lost contact in our day by day.
The, a big argument started and it ended up by me hanging up in her face.
What a nice begining of birthday, isnt it?
Then, i cried in bed, cos also, Chris hasnt wished me a good birthday, and he decided to go to bed at 11:45, gosh, w/o saying anything about my birthday. 
So, I cried, then, mum called me to argue about things, and then, i slept.

On the other day, my birthday, I woke up at 9am, and rushed to the school to pick the documents i have asked a motoboy to take to a register office for me, and from school, i went to the bank, to deliver the required document.  I waited 20 min in a queue and then, when i showed the document to the bank clerk, she told me that the document was ok, but i also needed another document which is called "the negative declaration from the 10 registring offices of the state of sao paulo".  I said: "what??????"

Gosh, that was like a cold shower over my head.
I could not believe it.

I went to school and cried . cried cried.

I cried on the street. i was very much nervous about this bank thing.  I told Jose Carlos who caught me crying and he told me: "Wait Cris, i will go to the bank and speak to the manager for you. It is not right they demand such a thing from a person who hasnt done anything wrong"

He went there during his lunch time.

Then, meanwhile, a bunch of flowers arrived for me.

I got surprised as there was no cards inside.

Then, a student came and gave me a gift.  I got happy, as she remembered it was my birthday.

That was already 13hs.   Jose went to the bank.   I was nervous, with a crying face and eyes.

I didnt even put make up in my face, as i was constantly crying.

Then, Jose carlos arrived, He told me: "cris, no way, they said that as the shop has lost ur cheque, then u will need to have this document".  Gosh, i was so nervous I cried again: "José, I think I will never end this story!!!!! My trip is dammed"

He said,"calm down, woman!! U can go to the downtown office and ask them to have this document for you", "but it will take a week or so".

Gosh, then i phoned up the motoboy co again, and asked them if they knew whether i could send a motoboy there to sort this out, they didnt know, and then i called another and another company....  And then, 5pm stroke and all was lost.  The offices work from 9am to 5pm.  This fucking govern offices!!!!!1

If the WHOLE society works from 8 to 10pm why do they work only till 5pm????

so, then, my boss came to me and said: "cris, pls, dont cry, all will be sorted out...look, i have a present for you..." and he gave me 3 cans of guinness beer!! , lol  I found out that funny, as i never could imagine i would ever get beer as a present , and especially from my boss, lol

Then, i drew a smile and hugged him, and he said: Look, i bought you a pair of silver earrings.....for you to wear in London".

I went silent.  Gosh, I started to cry again.  lol

Then, i thought it was strange that my dad hasnt phoned me...

It was already 6pm.  I thought: maybe mum called him and told him bullshit, so he is maybe angry at me...

But i was very sad.

Cos, no matter if i had had arguments with mum.  dad has NOTHING to do with it.
Anyway, the working day passed by.   Juan the teacher came and gave me some scent sticks. :)

Cassia, the other teacher gave me a box of home made chocolate. mmmmm
The secretary gave me another pair of earrings, lol  I laughed.  Why on earth everyone is giving me earrings, lol

At 19hs, Jose came to me and said: "cris, try to forget ur trip just for tonight.  It is ur birthday, and it is not fair u spend it crying." "Go with ur friends and enjoy urself, get pissed, laugh"

I was looking to my mobile non stop.  I was waiting for chris to call me.

Then, a mother came in.  I had to talk to her.

I was talking to her, closed doors, and through my glass window, i saw kika standing there in the reception, lol  I made her a sign and she waited for me.  She had a sit and talked to Jose Carlos, to Viviane.

Then, I saw a friend from my russian course arriving, lol  and i could not say anything cos i was with the mother there talking.  He sat down too. loll

When the mother went away, it was already 21hs, and then, i hugged kika, she gave me a body lotion and some special glicerin soaps :)  We stayed there and talked for a while.  Then, Naia showed up, wih her bf. 

Gosh, i got really surprised!!!!

Then, came Hugo, and Fabiano, and Caio!!!

So, we all went to the bar across from school.  Jose told me: "Go Cris, enjoy urself, and drink some beer. go and try to smile"

"tomorrow is another day"

Then, i did as he told me so.

I went there, and I told my friends: "I will sit my butt in this chair, and wont stand from here until i get reeeeeeaaaaaaaally pissed."

Pedro, the friend form the russian course, said: "Dont worry, Cris!! I will help you, lol"

And we stayed there until 3am. gosh!!  It was a warm night.  I drank like hell.
Gustavo - who lives just in the building opposite mine, helped me walk the 2 blocks back home, lol  When we got in front of my building, I sat by the little fence outside, and put my purse on the pavement.

He said: "Cris, what r u doing??"
I said: I want to have a sit on the pavement"
He said: It is 3am!!!!"  - can us sit on the pavement another day?? I have to get up early today to work, lol"

I said, I want to sit now.  ANd i sat. he was standing.  and soon, sat down too.
I started to cry like a baby.

He hugged me, and asked why i was that way, why i wasnt happy"
I just remember i cried a lot, in front of my building...  and told him everything about my disappointment.  That that was the most terrible birthday of my life.  That i was feeling lonely, I was feeling miserable.  I had no one to count on and etc.

He said that it all would end ok, that i would travel, that the documents would get ready, and also offered me some help to sort out my things, he also said that there was no need to feel lonely, and also, he told me, if whenever i wanted to go to a restaurant, or a cinema, i could call him, as he is alone in the city too and we live pretty close.

I thanked him, and then, we said goodbye.  That was already 4am.

At 9am. i had to go to the school, the barbecue would start at 10am.

I was looking miserable.

All ended ok.  but i still need to sort the document out.

This story is really driving me crazy.